Feel sorry for me. I had to get up early to go to this New York State teachers' program. Being a teacher, getting up early has not been a part of my life for two months now with summer and all. I know, I know, you must feel so bad for me! On my hour drive to the conference center this program was at, I couldn't help but be tempted to drive around for a while and show up a little late. I was dreading it for some reason. To my surprise, the program was excellent. We were actively involved and to top it off, we were served a three course lunch! Not bad, right??

My hour drive back home is where I got really tired. In fact, I was so tired I forgot where I was going "home" to. Without thinking, I went to the place Jeff and I have called home for the past two years. I actually could see the house before I realized I didn't live there anymore and I had to drive another twenty minutes before I could get out and take a nap. That nap didn't actually happen, but it was the thought that counts!

Later in the day, I ran into one of Jeff's former co-workers. I remembered what Jeff's advice was, and how he wants me to speak only positively about our situation this coming year. I did just that; nothing but good things. I reiterated why this was the best way for us to handle the coming year, and how much we will both benefit from it. Hey Jeff, I know you are reading this (anyone else, I am not sure), it really worked! Talking so positively about it, made me feel a lot better about it. I know that when alcoholics go to AA meetings, they tell them to "fake it till they make." Meaning, basically, lie and pretend that you are sober, until you actually are. So, in essence, I am faking it till I make it too. I will pretend that I am completely okay with our living situation and the more optimistic I talk about it, the more I optimistic I will begin to feel. Thanks, Jeff! I always say you know everything!