Endings

I am not good with endings. Doesn't even really matter what kind of ending it is, I'm not good with them. With today being the last day of school, the ending of my time at my current school, and the fifth grade graduation ceremony I was confident this morning that I was prepared to handle this ending.

Thinking back on a few momentous endings, I have more than proof that I don't handle them well. The one ending that I handled with the least amount of strength and grace was when my college basketball career came to an end. It took up an enormous amount of time. It was the thing I was most dedicated to. Then, one day, with a loss to the University of Rochester, it all ended.

I didn't throw a fit. I didn't complain that we should have won the game but didn't. I didn't make excuses. I was just simply heart broken. So heart broken that besides spending every waking hour in the gym trying to fill the void, every should be sleeping hour, I spent sobbing to myself. Needless to say I did not handle it well. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't do anything except wish it were a dream.

Today, my last day at school, I thought I would handle well. I certainly had enough time to adjust to the idea. The fifth grade graduation ceremony went smoothly. My speech knocked socks off and the kids were bustling with excitement as they each crossed the stage. It was a happy occasion. It is just that the occasion ended at 11:30 and then we had a luncheon and to pack our classrooms up for the remainder of the day.

The afternoon dragged on and gave me time to dwell on the fact that I would not be back. People were constantly stopping in to say goodbye and give me hugs. Awkward goodbyes are the worst and they all started to pile up on me. I cannot wait to be in Cleveland, but I do wish I could bring my school with me. I like it there.

June 24th, the title of my blog is tomorrow. Due to commitments and the such, I will not actually be moving out until Sunday, June 27th. I am looking forward to Sunday, but not necessarily all the crap I have to get done before then!