An Empty Apartment

It is now official, we are completely out of the first place we ever lived together. Both of us. We always knew it was going to happen, and we were pretty sure it was going to happen fairly soon, but we thought we would be moving out of it together! I hate that no matter how you put it, it sounds like we are getting divorced, and that is so far from the truth.

This morning when I woke up, my realization that Jeff wasn't there did not take long. I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness over his absence, before I had even opened my eyes. What a way to start your day! After taking Shea for a run I scrubbed, scrubbed, and scrubbed the entire place until it was spotless. Jeff and I are adamant about leaving the place in much better shape than he got it in, although that was not hard!

Luckily for me, my family lives close by. I am going to stay at my uncle's house this school year. He has a huge house all to himself. It hasn't necessarily been finding a place for me to live that has been the problem, as much as finding a place where Shea would not be too big of a burden. My uncle's house is perfect because he has been dying to get a dog since his Golden Retriever died about eight years ago.  My mother, father, and uncle all came and helped move everything out of the apartment. How sad and empty the place looked after we were finished. All throughout my day, I couldn't help but wish Jeff were there. Not to help us move things, although that would have been nice, but because I hate doing anything that seems the least bit momentous without him. I wish he could be a part of everything even semi-big in my life, as I wish I could be there for all of his special times, no matter how big or small. I predict these feelings will come along quite a bit this year.

On a positive note, my internet is finally working, now that I am in a place that has internet and cable. So, Jeff and I were able to video chat. What a wonderful asset that is! Although I can't be with him everyday, I can see him! It is so much better when we can see each other and talk, rather than having monotonous phone conversations.

Tomorrow I turn in our keys, and finish working on my classroom. School starts next Wednesday, and I have a lot to do in my room. I guess it will be good to stay busy!