A Thin Line

Maybe you noticed. I had announced last week, that I was going to be spending this past weekend in Cleveland with Jeff. It was wishful thinking. I was a week ahead in my thinking. Really, it is this coming weekend that I will be in Cleveland.

I must say, I am at the point where it has been too long since I have seen Jeff. There is a thin line in my life right now. The line between normal Alicia, and complete insanity. Like I said, it's a thin line! I am standing directly on it right now. I noticed it a little this morning. I was at school, and usually am excited to get my week started off. I like hearing about what the kids did over the weekend and getting to work with them. However, they annoyed me today. A little clue to myself, that I am not all there.

Then, when I was driving home, I had to stop at the bank in our old neck of the woods. As I was driving, taking in the sights of what used to be our town, I felt a sadness come over me.

I wished I was heading home to Jeff, the way I used to when I traveled these roads. I knew it wasn't going to happen. I am not that insane. But, it is nice to know that Friday I will be heading to see him. This week will be torturous, but will end at some point. I know it will. 

I was almost going to allow myself to be grumpy this week, as I simply miss my husband. But, I know that would not fly with Jeff. He would not be happy about that, so I won't let it happen. I will be on cloud nine Friday. Until then, I will stay slightly below on cloud 8.